unconscious change
Naturam Primum Cognoscere Rerum
"First, to know the nature of things"
those are the words found on ANU's crest. so profound yet so true. recently had a ANU Alumni Scholarship interview which i think i didn't give it my 100%. maybe i got too carried away explaining certain things, but it could've been better. small consolation is that the chief interviewer, who happened to be an alumnus of my alma mater MBS, commented that i'm a sensible person. =) really hope to nail that scholarship but i'm assuming i don't get it for now. some call it fate or luck, but i believe that God will take away the better plan for me so that the BEST plan can be put to action. i should always remind myself that for everything that i do, it is "not by my will, but Yours"
today i went for the Star Education Fair 2006 @ Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre. the convention centre is really beautiful and huge. in fact, i was rather impressed with the overall infrastructure. both the fair and the talk on "funding higher education" was a letdown for me. i'd say the trip to KLCC today tended more to the waste-of-time category although i did learn a little bit from here and there. during the talk, the video for PTPTN ( a government arm in charge of administering student loans) couldn't be played due to some technical errors. upon noticing this, my mind had unknowingly switched to a very critical and unforgiving mode. i had thoughts about the level of competence of most locals, or the lack of. regarding the technical error, the acsi MRC (media resource crew) popped into mind and i was thinking.... even our acsi MRC could have done a better job. this is the point where i discovered a very important realisation about myself. i have become more arrogant in my thinking unknowingly.
*unconscious change*
i have developed a very critical outlook, and as much i hate to compare, i am comparing what i see back here in kl to what i had had in singapore. well, identifying the differences is good but i didn't like the way i responded to the whole picture. sometimes it's the feeling one gets when you've been to someplace better, and you are unwilling to step out of this comfort zone to improve a poorer situation. you rather whine about the poor standards and simply yearn for something better, not really suggesting any way to erase the negative and add the positive. you tend to respond in a very condescending manner; dash away everything at first sight lower than your 'standards' without even giving any chance for justification.
i'm quite happy i can still identify this flaw early before it becomes etched deeper in my character. now, i really should practise the philosophy of Naturam Primum Cognoscere Rerum.
this is my conscious change
"First, to know the nature of things"
those are the words found on ANU's crest. so profound yet so true. recently had a ANU Alumni Scholarship interview which i think i didn't give it my 100%. maybe i got too carried away explaining certain things, but it could've been better. small consolation is that the chief interviewer, who happened to be an alumnus of my alma mater MBS, commented that i'm a sensible person. =) really hope to nail that scholarship but i'm assuming i don't get it for now. some call it fate or luck, but i believe that God will take away the better plan for me so that the BEST plan can be put to action. i should always remind myself that for everything that i do, it is "not by my will, but Yours"
today i went for the Star Education Fair 2006 @ Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre. the convention centre is really beautiful and huge. in fact, i was rather impressed with the overall infrastructure. both the fair and the talk on "funding higher education" was a letdown for me. i'd say the trip to KLCC today tended more to the waste-of-time category although i did learn a little bit from here and there. during the talk, the video for PTPTN ( a government arm in charge of administering student loans) couldn't be played due to some technical errors. upon noticing this, my mind had unknowingly switched to a very critical and unforgiving mode. i had thoughts about the level of competence of most locals, or the lack of. regarding the technical error, the acsi MRC (media resource crew) popped into mind and i was thinking.... even our acsi MRC could have done a better job. this is the point where i discovered a very important realisation about myself. i have become more arrogant in my thinking unknowingly.
*unconscious change*
i have developed a very critical outlook, and as much i hate to compare, i am comparing what i see back here in kl to what i had had in singapore. well, identifying the differences is good but i didn't like the way i responded to the whole picture. sometimes it's the feeling one gets when you've been to someplace better, and you are unwilling to step out of this comfort zone to improve a poorer situation. you rather whine about the poor standards and simply yearn for something better, not really suggesting any way to erase the negative and add the positive. you tend to respond in a very condescending manner; dash away everything at first sight lower than your 'standards' without even giving any chance for justification.
i'm quite happy i can still identify this flaw early before it becomes etched deeper in my character. now, i really should practise the philosophy of Naturam Primum Cognoscere Rerum.
this is my conscious change
thoughts of tanoshi at 12:40 AM
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